Louise's thoughts

Drama Queen

I always liked that expression, even before I knew exactly what it meant. Now that I know roughly what it describes, I can't help thinking that I liked the words because deep down, I knew they describe one side of me. Not a very secret or dark side of me, just a piece of my overall personality. And not because I act hysterical or loud in many situations (please let me know if I am wrong here!), but because I like drama. I exaggerate. I like to make things more dramatic than they are in reality and I exaggerate on any given occasion and make things seem more tragic or harmonious than they really are. I even expect people to know this.

I am not going to use this opportunity to confess to all my drama queen acts, but just point out that what I say or do, is often affected by how little drama I have found in my life lately. If my life gets too boring, I often wound up things in my own head and make people (and myself) believe that they are more meaningful than they in fact are. If some person says a stupid little thing to me, I over-interpret it and end up believing and convincing other people that that person doesn't like me. Or doesn't like himself. And if I overhear an innocent conversation, I immediately think that there is something hidden and that they are conspiring towards general mutiny against the Dean. Likewise, when a date says 'see you in a week', I think it is because he doesn't really like me and make it into a disaster, even though he might just be too busy to actually see me.

So being a drama queen is not that easy and although I keep telling myself to calm down and start being less drama and more queen, I long to exaggerate and make my life less boring. I mean, how much excitement can one girl get by typing papers all day, studying handheld computers and being around the same people that I have known for more than five years and that I still don't find that interesting (I am not talking about any of my readers here). I need drama in my life and although California provided me with approximately half the drama than I used to get here in Copenhagen, the 'being in California' factor itself was drama enough for months. Copenhagen so far, has not provided me with much excitement and the result is that I am making use of my exaggeration tendencies to charge up the pace. As soon as I have my drama queen acts back in action I will be as good as new and hopefully get caught up in entanglements of lies, betrayal, desire and fun. Just be prepared.